Short version: budget cuts, unilateral moves by department administrators without adequate explanations, and People Going Crazy.
What hurts my feelings most about this is that I am stressed the fuck out (a) and that people who ACTIVELY HATED ME AND COLLUDED AGAINST ME not so long ago are now seeking me out as an ally (b). Because, you know, allies. (The thing about me is that I will say what I think but I have no interest in being an active member in any faction. Which perhaps makes me ill-suited to life in most English departments.)
You know what I think? First: do they think I have amnesia? That I don’t remember when there was a target on my back, placed there by them? FUCK THEM if they think that I will just join their fucking club as if I DON’T recall when these people went after me. Second: I care about STUDENTS and not about either this bullshit administrative shit nor do I care about my colleagues (or even me) getting preferred teaching schedules.
Jesus MotherFUCKING Christ. I am so filled with stress and rage that I can’t even talk about it.